| I really wanted to stay awake
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| I was trying to stay awake
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| And it was about 7 o’clock on Sunday Morning
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| Been up all night
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| Knew I had to finish my work
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| I knew I had to
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| As I looked out my window it was
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| Bright sunlight on the orange bricks of the next building
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| Very bright sight somehow reflecting
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| And through the window if I was able to understand
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| I guess why I couldn’t stay awake
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| It was not conscious
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| Before I realized I couldn’t stay awake anymore
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| But now it’s even worse than before
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| I was listening to a tape of a lecture on Buddhism
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| At which I was present
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| I heard myself asking a lot of stupid questions
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| I was thickheaded at the lecture
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| Sitting there on the floor
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| But to hear it all now it’s even worse than before
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| Those shoes I had were some name I can’t remember
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| I found them in a wastebasket about to be emptied
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| They’re mostly the only shoes I wear
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| When I found them they had been worn
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| The bottoms were worn off
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| Worn off on the edges
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| They were mostly in good shape
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| I found that they fit me
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| I was very happy
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| There was something about them that sticks to the floor when I walk
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| It makes a noise
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| I kept wearing them
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| They got wet many times and now the stitches holding them together on the sides
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| is coming apart
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| Everywhere
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| And you can see my colored socks in the hole where they come apart
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| But they stick to the floor when I walk still
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| Very noticeable
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| I stepped in some sticky stuff
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| Spilled by the door
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| Since then it’s even worse than before
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| On Broadway one night
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| There was this fairly high pitched, loud tone that sounded like a siren
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| People were looking around to see where it came from
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| The food store on the corner provided a lot of the light
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| Because it was open
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| Pretty soon I realized that the sound was coming from
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| The hood of this one car that was parked on the street nearby
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| It was empty and locked as you walked toward it
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| And became even louder
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| I first noticed the sound when I walked past the store
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| But now it’s even worse than before
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| I really wanted to show somehow how things deteriorate
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| Or how one bad thing leads to another
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| At first there were plenty of things to point to
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| Lots of people, places, things, ideas
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| Turning to shit everywhere
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| I could describe these instances
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| But the more I thought about them
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| The less they seemed to be negative things
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| But appeared in the scenes as something new and productive
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| And I couldn’t talk about them in the same way
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| But I knew it was true that there really are
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| Dangerous crises
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| Growing in many different places
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| That I was blind to then
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| Once it was easy to find something to deplore
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| But now it’s even worse than before
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| The question is whether or not
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| This kind of music is going to hypnotize you
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| Do you resent being made to listen to
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| This monotonous music
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| Or having to listen to
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| Such boring sentences
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| Friends have said that by producing this kind of music
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| People are put to sleep
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| In fact, I’ve always thought too
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| I’ve always disliked the Rolling Stones
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| Since I found out what they were up to
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| So when the prospect of doing this very hypnotic music came to my mind
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| I realized that I should at least bring up the problems of listening to this
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| kind of rhythm
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| That is, regularity may temporarily take your mind of the more important tasks
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| we have
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| I had to decide if it was in our best interest to present this
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| But now that I went ahead and did it after asking what it was for
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| Now it’s even worse than before |