Lyrics New Hell - Aphasia

New Hell

Twenty years of resentment has brought us to this
I’ve tried
I’ve pried
How can you sleep at night?
You played your part
Against me from the start
Was my best interest ever at heart?
Always to blame
Always felt the same
Cut me out of your frame and forget my name
Introduce me to a New Hell
Introduce me to a New Hell
Disgrace
A waste
Just a bitter taste
A hell that dwells in depths of deception
And makes me rethink everything I’ve ever known
Everything I’ve ever known
Why is it that I’ve always needed you, but you only needed me
When it was convenient for you
All these years I’ve tried to feel love
But I’ve only felt pushed further away
You were supposed to guide me
And make me feel worth something
More than the dirt that lies beneath your feet
More than the burden of my fathers seed
For twenty years I’ve tried to make you see
That caring for me should have come so easily
Day after day I tear myself apart from the inside out
I’ve shed every piece of myself in search of my mother’s love
I’ve shed every piece of myself in search of my mother’s love
Disgrace
A waste
Just a bitter taste
A hell that dwells in depths of deception
And makes me rethink everything I’ve ever known
Everything I’ve ever known
Why is it that I’ve always needed you, but you only needed me
When it was convenient for you
Day after day I tear myself apart from the inside out
And for what?
I’ve shed every piece of myself in search of a new hell