| apathy for everyday life.
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| that feeling, as if with a temperature in the bed:
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| I would rather open up than change something.
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| and in every dream you return to summer,
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| clutching envelopes of lucky tickets.
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| Do you remember? |
| neighbors called, wrote,
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| they just took us out of the schedule,
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| every passer-by looked after us.
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| we are no longer in this reality,
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| from this moment on, we simply do not exist.
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| sometimes you don’t even hear a voice / cry,
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| in the abyss of love choking in blood.
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| not everyone who receives letters is happy.
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| but your voice trembled so much,
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| not cold, we just played with nerves,
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| squeezing lymph, carotid artery, just together
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| we loved to fly.
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| heartbeats were measured in degrees Celsius,
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| and milligrams of tears measured melancholy.
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| YOU JUST UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU ARE IN DEPRESSION
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| I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU.
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| just understand my sadness and sadness,
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| I desperately rushed to you, in kilometers
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| spilled blood in the asphalt,
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| hours at the checkpoint or in an empty bullpen.
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| Pierrot drowned in poems or songs,
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| and I remember kisses on the reverse.
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| remember, Malvina, native palms,
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| REMEMBER EVEN UNDER PERHYDROL.
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| cry more, Malvina, and cut your hands,
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| Pierrot drank himself, hanged himself in the bathroom.
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| your curls sparkled in the sun,
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| but now it will remove the spell of depression?
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| sad people loitered around,
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| empty eyes revealed the truth to us,
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| in empty supermarkets at night and drunk,
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| in search of only captivating happiness.
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| away from people and trains and trams,
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| sad people included songs for us;
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| loved to love and were loved,
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| but Yura, we all fucked up here a long time ago.
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| you were called to the registration, and I'm sick,
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| they poured you whiskey, and I'm covered in blood,
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| they tried to rape you in the shower,
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| and I'm just sick and don't fucking need it.
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| write suicide notes on twitter,
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| and upload the photo on tumblr and cry,
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| forget about sadness, this purple drink
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| Spilled on the knees, but we fucking need sadness.
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| Pierrot wrote about it, don't remember dashingly.
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| Piero drank himself and died on Vykhino,
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| in a fucking five-story Khrushchev building,
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| obviously knowing about our tragedy.
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| cry more, Malvina, and cut your hands,
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| Pierrot drank himself, hanged himself in the bathroom.
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| your curls sparkled in the sun,
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| but who will now remove the spell of depression?
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| sad people loitered around,
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| empty eyes revealed the truth to us,
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| in empty supermarkets at night and drunk,
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| in search of only captivating happiness.
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| away from people and trains and trams,
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| there will come a time when I fall out drunk
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| from the windows onto the dirty asphalt pavement,
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| crescent moon broken, with a broken fate
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| you were called to the registration, and I died;
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| you were loved so much, Madame Curie,
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| you don't care a single gram anymore,
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| and I witnessed the life of the finale, Malvina |