| (I know he’s blood but you can still turn him away
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| you don’t owe him anything)
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| do you go to the dungeon
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| to find out how to make peace with your days in the dungeon
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| writing a letter to you
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| didn’t make me feel any more peaceful than how I felt when we weren’t
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| speaking
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| because I didn’t cop to what I did.
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| I can’t love you becaused we’re supposed to have professional
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| boundaries.
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| I’d like you to be schooled and in awe as though you were kissed by god full on the lips.
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| I’m in the front row the front row with popcorn
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| I get to see you see you close up
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| (I'm too tired to recount the unpleasantries one by one
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| one minute I want to banish you
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| the next I want to be on a deserted island with you with my three
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| favorite cd’s
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| ambivalent in your bed we’ve yet to acknowledge what really happened)
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| Slid into the ditch I have this overwhelming loss of amibition
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| we said let’s name thirty good reasons why we shouldn’t be together
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| I started by saying things like you smoke you live in new jersey
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| (too far)
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| you started saying things like you belong to the world
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| all of which could have been easily refuted
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| but the conversation was hypothetical
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| I am totally short of breath for you
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| why can’t you shut your stuff off…
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| I’m in the front row the front row with popcorn
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| I get to see you see you close up and I laughed until my lungs hurt
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| I love how you bust my chops
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| You don’t always feel seen
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| Sometimes you feel erasable unfortunately I cannot reciprocate in my current state
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| I think we should be careful of how much time we spend together
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| …for a while while i’m speaking
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| you know how much you hate to be interrupted maybe spend some time
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| alone
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| fill up your proverbial cup so that it doesn’t always about you
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| I’ve been wanting your undivided attention I like the fact that you’re
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| nothing like me Are you not burdened by the lack of perspective people have of your
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| charmed life (seemingly)?
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| I’m in the front row the front row with popcorn
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| I get to see you see you close up you never meant to be ungrateful
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| nor held up to be whipped or wept
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| for certainly not analysed
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| prodded at more ways than one apparently you’ve been misrepresented
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| dealing with the concept of arrows being slung towards your outrageous
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| fortune
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| Hey I’m not mad at you guardian
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| I’m mad at myself for spending so much time with you and your jeckyl
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| and hydeness
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| i’m glad i firguratively slapped you on the wrist
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| you laughed a wicked laugh and said come here let me clip your
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| wings!
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| (I know he’s blood but you can still turn him away you don’t own him
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| anything)
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| raise the roof he yelled yeah raise the roof! |
| I yelled back.
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| (Unfortunately you needed a health scare to reprioritize.)
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| No thanks to the soap box
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| Having my rile against them won’t make an ounce of difference…
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| I’m in the front row the front row with popcorn
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| I get to see you see you close up Oh the things I’ve done for you
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| many a sitch a friend a man’s been left for you
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| oh the books i’ve read for you
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| the tongues i’ve bitten for you many a new city for you
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| for you many a risk taken for you (not a single regret) |