Song information On this page you can read the lyrics of the song Crisis , by - Abstract. Release date: 30.09.2021
Song language: English
Crisis |
| Walk through fires I thought I had left in yesterday |
| I thought I had learned to circumnavigate the pain |
| Maybe I get high off riding waves and hurricanes |
| Bringing calm to chaos, knowing chaos gon' win anyway |
| Rush of the bomb-tick, tortured as an artist |
| Anxious with my love and I swear I’ve been trying to solve this |
| Ice in the veins of the ones I’m trying to change |
| 'Cause I think if I can save 'em, I’ll believe I can be saved |
| Packing my bags and I’m on my way |
| Nothing you can say that can make me stay |
| Try to keep you where the light is |
| But you’re a sucker for a crisis |
| Way too many nights that you left me in the dark |
| Distance you create between us has been tearing me apart |
| You expect me to be perfect |
| Even when you know I don’t deserve it |
| Settled for what we believe we deserve |
| I believe I deserve only the worst |
| I let anxiety trigger my heart |
| Guess I felt comfortable lost in the dark |
| I grew up having to prove who I was |
| Everything I did was never enough |
| Reason I look for the coldest of people |
| 'Cause I lived with evil and thought it was love |
| I keep repeating the patterns |
| The people who matter are comfortable shattering me |
| I give one hundred percent |
| Get addicted when they only give back a fraction to me |
| Love to be needed, but I feel defeated when I get depleted and start getting |
| used |
| I lose my temper and they flip the script and say I’m the one who’s really |
| causing abuse |
| That’s when I fight myself |
| Go and gaslight myself |
| I start thinking you’re right |
| Startin' to not like myself |
| Getting inside my head |
| Thinking I’m better off dead |
| Paint the whole bedroom red |
| Just so I can get it through your head |
| That you can’t lie and cheat then lie again to make me feel this way |
| Treat me like it’s me who’s got an issue when you play your games |
| Yes, I never lied to you but I’ve been lying to myself |
| Thinking I deserve less than I do, breaking out your hell |
| So you live with all your lies |
| And how’d you sleep so well those nights we had those fights? |
| How’d you look in my eyes? |
| Trick my heart just to rip apart everything inside |
| Packing my bags and I’m on my way |
| Nothing you can say that can make me stay |
| Try to keep you where the light is (Where the light is) |
| But you’re a sucker for a crisis (For a crisis) |
| Way too many nights that you left me in the dark |
| Distance you create between us has been tearing me apart |
| You expect me to be perfect (Expect me to be perfect) |
| Even when you know I don’t deserve it |
| Thinking the issue is you |
| I know the issue is me |
| This isn’t me saying you’re right; |
| this is me setting me free |
| I gotta know what I’m worth, gotta know what I deserve |
| Love is not what is familar; |
| love is me putting me first |
| I’m done with dousing myself in the gas and then lighting myself just to keep |
| others warm |
| I’m done with loving these people who treat loving me back like it was some |
| kind of a chore |
| I’m done with building a house for the people I love when they won’t even walk |
| to the door |
| I’m leaving you to leave who I was |
| And if anyone asks, I did it for love |
| You’re always getting away instead of basing this home we’re trying to build |
| together, you barely spend time in it |
| Yeah, I’m getting mad right now and angry, 'cause you push my frustrations out |
| the freaking roof, dude |
| You know my traumas and yet you play off of them all the freaking time |
| «I can’t talk right now,» shut your phone off again, are you kidding me? |