Lyrics Strugglin' - A-Wax, Young Gully

Strugglin'

Everyone around me is still strugglin'
How am I supposed ta ever stop hustlin'?
When my partna got killed by my otha one
Who just walks around town like it wasn’t him
Rap music, sellin' dope, still jugglin'
Last time the feds hit, lost a dozen men
Saw my partna try hard ta turn his life around
Only to have police plant drugs on him
Such a cold world
If rappin' was more brackin', I could finally quit trappin'
But it isn’t, so I can’t, wishin' for another chance
Puttin' off college, to be pushin' narcotics
Like it’s really my job, need to really find God
But I don’t know his address, put it in the MapQuest
Nothin' popped up, maybe hell is locked up
And heaven is freedom, said you bet I’ma beat 'em
Touch my fam in the morning and you’ll be dead by this evenin'
I’m overworked, underpaid.
One foot on Earth, one in the grave
Runnin' work, stomach in pain, from hunger pangs
Gotta go get it, so underprivileged, growing up with bad intentions
It’s no wonder I was sentenced, to the can
Came out with a chip on my shoulder
She was tryin' to fall in love, told that bitch I’m a soldier
I don’t know what we gon' do if this shit gets any colder
California probably shoulda been split like Dakota
I won’t lose, I won’t cry tears
Devil all in my ideas
Open up your eyelids
Emotions, she just can’t hide his
Maybe I should die today
Suicide should find a way
To take me out the atmosphere
To death I will not shy away
Maybe I should quit the rap.
Go get the strap, go flip a pack
They told me since I took a fall, I can’t get my position back
Want to live in opulence.
Can’t breathe, need antioxidants
I’m just another occupant, in hell’s office, should I repent?
Inhalin' smoke to keep me calm, knowin' I might just self-destruct
Goddess was nowhere in sight, my lifestyle wasn’t helping much
Snakes under my lawnmower, I only got myself to trust
Lost it in these cold streets, the hustle fast, I felt the rush
Spent it all, I coulda saved.
Wildin', I know I should behave
Coppers cuffin' niggas wrists, got my entire hood enslaved
Starin' down this highway, seein' all the roads I couldn’t pave
Get your heart Gully, get your heart, 'cause you don’t look as brave
Dog I think you gettin' soft, people think you livin' lost
I’m just tryin' to find a bridge, hopefully I get across
Thoughts been all over the place, I should have left 'em in the vault
Obstacles deflate your drive and mine won’t turn its engine off
Gully!