
Date of issue: 19.05.2016
Song language: English
Rocky |
Sons: remember your fathers |
Deathmyhangingdoorway |
The day before I watched you sleep |
You were slipping |
You were letting your pain go |
The body didn’t match the heart |
Your pain was seeing us |
Because we loved you so much |
I understood why people say |
«I would have traded places with you» |
I would have instantly |
You didn’t deserve to have breath be short |
Your lungs were weak from birth |
The body didn’t match your heart |
Your heart was too big for your body |
Even though it had withered away |
Deprived of oxygen |
A smile never left your face |
You were never bitter or angry |
Never sour or upset |
You loved us unconditionally |
Trust God |
Love God |
Know that there is a plan |
I saw no plan other than the taking of a good man |
Every time I saw you I was angry |
And every single time you’d look right at me |
I wanted to curse the creation that made you suffer |
You told me to be at peace |
Strangely |
I could |
Because of your strength |
March 8th |
Mid-morning |
My mom, my sister and I |
I never watched someone I love die before |
Mallory stood up and got sick |
My mother was beside herself in relief and disbelief |
Finally you could rest |
I remember looking at my mother to try and see her face |
I can’t remember her face |
I can’t remember how she looked |
She had been taking care of my dad every moment of every day |
After we went home |
After we cleaned up and did the dishes |
After the football game when the pain of what life had become |
Draped like stars over their shared sky |
Love is not a burden |
Love is a sun |
I see the purple light |
Dad, if somehow you can hear me |
I’m sorry that this song isn’t all it should be |
I love you so much |
Thank you for being the greatest man I’ve ever known |
I miss you more than I can comprehend |
Sometimes I feel like you’re going to call me |
Like somehow it wasn’t real |
Even though I took care of your body |
When it grew cold in that warm bright room |
I knew you were gone |
Still I had to touch your face and pull back your hair |
When I kissed your forehead and held your neck |
I felt your love even then |
Goodbye, Dad |
I’ll see you in the next life |
I’ll always be your son |
Name | Year |
---|---|
A World to Touch | 2017 |
My Violence | 2017 |
Defenseless Receiver | 2017 |
Begging to Be Adored | 2017 |
Lilajugend | 2014 |
Ringfinger | 2014 |
My Days in Nights and You | 2014 |
Born to Ruin | 2014 |
Endless // Infinite // Eternal | 2014 |
Circle of Crying Women | 2014 |
You Cut Me from a Magazine I Didn't Know That I Was In | 2014 |
Dream Addict | 2014 |
Fresh Flower Offering (Purple Night) | 2014 |
Unreachable Arc | 2014 |
My Last Song | 2019 |
Broken Play | 2019 |
Guess | 2015 |
Blixen | 2016 |
Holy Death Candle | 2019 |
Future Panther | 2019 |